I have flu.
I haven't moved from my bed, apart from fighting my way through the huge pile of soggy tissues for trips to the loo, and the kitchen for lemsips and flu remedies since about 10pm Friday, that was 48 hours ago. What a waste of a week-end, although I felt so shit I had no choice.
I can be a lazy sod sometimes, it's not exactly unusual for me to have very long lie-ins at the week-end but I HATE being forced to stay in bed because I'm ill. I can never properly relax because I just wind myself up thinking about all the things I could be doing instead.
|Better then previous representation of last 48 hours in my house.|
On the positive I haven't had a cigarette since about 9pm on Friday.
Smoked the last one and since then been unable to go to the shop. Am I craving one ? Hellyeah. Am I going to get some ? Probably not.
I still feel very wobbly when I stand up, in fact I doubt I'll make it to work tomorrow, but apart from cigarettes there's nothing I need so it's not like I HAVE to go and get milk so whilst I'm there I may as well . . . .
Honestly, I don't think I'd make it to the shop at the moment anyway.
So yeah, wish me luck 'cos I'm gonna try and quit permanently.
I did it once before - for 14 months - then got a bit stressed and decided to just 'have the one'. Within about 4 weeks I was smoking more then I did before I quit.
I guess being a smoker is like any addiction. You are never truly free of it, you just hope to get to a point where you're a smoker who hasn't had a fag for 30 years.
I've wrote this post because I feel as if writing it here means I'm really gonna do it.
Which probably means that you lot have plenty of angry posts to look forward to.
I'm off to blow my nose.
Update: I have changed the picture. Feeling slightly better today and not so spaced out on flu remedies - and realised that the previous picture made it look as if my crumpled quilt was in fact a large penis.
Now, it's not that I'd have a problem with spending 48 hours under a large penis, to be honest it would possibly make me feel a whole lot better, but why all the tissue ?
Now I feel as if I have to get up and change my bedding so the picture is accurate. Damn. Still not had a fag though.